I feel so much better...

I got to go to church today and I am feeling revived.  I missed so many services.  I think the last time I went to church was perhaps Easter.  At least that is the last entry in my Bible notebook.  I have been working 12 plus hours a day.  And the two jobs are scheduling me on church days.  I am praying this will change and that I will be able to attend services again on a regular basis.  I know that I get depressed and discouraged when I don't get to fellowship with my church family.  And my spiritual walk starts becoming more of a crawl when I miss too many services.  Today I feel so much better and I realized I miss my church family so much.  I don't want to start feeling like the family member you only see on holidays.  I want to be that family member you can depend on to be there for you whenever and for whatever.  I am praying these two jobs will not hinder my walk with Jesus or hinder my relationships with my church family.  Out of site out of mind they say.  I pray my church family does not forget me.  I pray that I can show them how much I love them by remaining faithful to church attendance.  And show them that I am faithful to the Lord regardless of that state I am in.  Right now the state I am could be named "unsure".  I am unsure of what will happen to my house.  I am unsure if I can work at the fast food drive-in.  (I am too old and well, the work atmosphere is not at all of a Christian quality).  I am unsure if I can remain living in this lion's den (my husband is the lion).  I am unsure if I will ever get another teaching job.  I am unsure of what the future holds.  I am unsure what direction I must go.  But I am not unsure of one thing.  The Lord will be there through it all for me and with me.  He has promised He will not leave me nor forsake me.  He has promised He would not put more on my shoulders than I can hold.  So, I am expecting the Lord to remove the shoulder pads I have on right now and put on more sturdier ones for what He has in store for me now.  So, after being in church today I can honestly say I feel much better now.  I pray my next time I get to go to church will not be very long.  Praying I will stay strong and faithful and will glorify the Lord in my days to come.