I didn't even request it.

I had the day off yesterday. To get a Saturday off at the store I always had to request it off in advance. Well, there was a catch though. I ended up having to work this morning at the store, so I missed yet another Sunday morning at church. Visitors go more than I do it seems. When I first got the job my boss told me that I would have my Sundays off. That is far and few between nowadays. I miss going to church regularly. My spiritual walk is definitely affected by not going faithfully. Walk? It is more like a crawl at times. I long to be walking with Jesus side by side. Oh how I miss listening to Bro. Jerry's sermons and learning in the Wednesday night and Sunday night lessons. But I really miss teaching in Sunday School so much. I enjoy teaching the young children and having them learn about Jesus. They love to listen to the stories in the Bible and all of the different lessons they can participate in on Sunday mornings. I miss the children in my class. I wonder if Jesus misses our little walks we had for years in the wee hours of the morning?

I do know that it is me that has fallen off the pathway. Jesus is waiting for me to get back on the path and catch up to Him. He is not too far away from me, but I am the one who tends to keep my distance. And it is all because I am not regular in my church attendance. I need to be in worship service on a regular basis. I need to fellowship with my church members more often. I need to open my Bible more. Wait, more? How about get it to open it up on a daily basis. I used to be in the Word of the Lord daily. I just realized that I haven't opened my Bible once this week except for today when I went to church tonite. I didn't mean to be so neglectful of my devotional time with the Lord. I meant to do it. I was going to do it later. Only one day turned into two and then well, you know where I am going with that. I just was neglectful and that is my only excuse. How can I make it up to the Lord? How can I possibly catch up with my readings? How can I learn from this?

First I need to ask the Lord for forgiveness about my neglectful way I am showing Him how much I love Him. I am mature enough to know what I should do, but I am childish en0ugh to not do what I should do.

Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive me for neglecting You in my daily walk. Please forgive me for neglecting You in my devotional time. Please forgive me for neglecting my devotional time. Oh Lord Jesus, how I have missed You. I miss spending time with You in Your Word and with my church family in fellowship. I know that I have put so many other things ahead of You Lord. Especially my time. I spend time online doing my school work and yet I cannot spend time just reading my Bible verse for the day. I know that I need to put You first Dear Lord. I just am out of the habit and need to practice discipline when it comes to getting into the Word. All I can do Lord is ask for forgiveness and begin over - again.

I want to start over again and start over right.
I need to start over again and start over right.
I will start over again and start over right.
I can start over again and start over right.
I am going to start over again and start over right.

Can I make an entry soon that says "I started over and started over right"?