Well, my vacation from two jobs is about over. I haven't had to work the two jobs since I lost my job at the school. And that was May 15th. (Will I ever get over that? It changed my life so much...) On Monday the 16th I start at my new job. I am very anxious and nervous about it. I mean it was 12 years ago that I started at the school and it was my main job. Yes, I am a teacher at my new job and the director. These two positions are very critical for the business to open. I pray that I will be able to do the job God gave me 100%. I am totally responsible for the center opening and that is alot of responsibility on my shoulders. I know I am capable. I just pray that my personal life does not get in the way. And that is a matter of daily prayer.
I am so excited though about working in a Christian learning center. I have always wanted to teach in a Christian school. Never in a million years would I have ever thought I would lose my job at the school and get a new job in a Christian learning center. But God works things out for His glory and I must show that I am able to do His job worthily. It will be like teaching Sunday School everyday. What a blessing!!!!
I know though that I must get my life back on the path where Jesus Christ is walking and waiting for me to catch up with Him. He has been waiting for quite a long time for me to stop focusing on other things and put my eyes upon Him. He is there and I know that He will be there everyday I go to work. See, those little ones that I am in charge of are His children and I must take care of them and see that they learn about God and He will help me every step of the way. I just have to take those steps toward Him and take a step each day. I must start back with my daily devotional time with the Lord and start my day out in prayer. I must continue to pray as I drive to work. I will have the traveling time to spend with Him. That will be such a privilege.
The Lord has answered so many of my prayers and all I had to do was ask and then walk through the door He provided for me. But, I must ask the Lord for forgiveness. I got in the way of His plan with me taking over my finances and not trusting Him to provide. I got myself in such a mess. It took bankruptcy to get me out of it. I am scared though. I started depending on borrowing money to take care of the bills, buy food, and take care of my children that I don't know any other way to do it. I can't borrow any money for a very, very long time. So, all I can do is trust God now. He will provide. I just need to step out in faith and believe. I have no other choice. Isn't God good? I mean He provided a way for me to get out of debt AND to rely just on Him. Trusting God and stepping out in faith is going to take a lot of prayer on my part. I will need my friends and family to hold me up in prayer too so I won't fall. I will need to find a friend who will keep me accountable and not let me slip in my selfish ways. I need to find a friend who I can turn to and let my troubles out before I get to depressed and try to ruin what God has provided. I am my worst enemy. I know that friend is Jesus. I will start a new journal and just enter my prayers to the Lord and through the journal I will be able to see in writing how the Lord answers prayers and see how He does it and it will be such a glorious journey. A journey I will share with my friends and family. I will share it all in this blog too. Are you ready for a journey with Jesus? Get ready because He has such a plan and I am going to be a part of that plan. And you will be a part of it too because you will be able to praise the Lord with me all the way.
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