Mine was not like I had expected it to be. Every year my husband hunts during the holiday week and this year he didn't. That means I didn't get to get on the computer at all for my whole vacation until today. He was hurting so bad due to the cold weather and how it effects his arthritis so he did not even leave the house except to go to our daughter's house on Thanksgiving Day. Today is the last day of buck season so he made himself go hunting. Got to get that buck hopefully you know.
I have always did the cooking and enjoyed my time alone while hubby is gone until noon. This year we had to borrow a roaster from the church because our oven's heating element is not working. I have never used a roaster but it did just as good a job as an oven only it didn't brown it like we like it. But it still was delicious.
I shouldn't be so selfish. I have been so upset over not being able to spend time on the computer. I mean I did get to be lazy and enjoy my days off from work. I had Wednesday off too. So five days off. That is the best part of the holiday. And we got to eat with our grandchildren this year. The "every other year custody battle" is tearing our little family apart. I could harp on my daughter's divorce, but it won't change things. We just pray it will get better soon.
The thing that I get upset over when I can't be on the computer except for my classes is that I wanted to dedicate this blog to the wonderful things the Lord has done for me or others and how I find treasures the Lord supplies etc. I wanted to share with my friends how the Lord is good and how He directs my ways and well, just how the Lord is finally becoming my first focus and priority after all of these years. Yes, I have been a Christian since I was 17 years old and I have been trying to live my life for Him on and off all these years, but I am finally realizing that I have been doing it all wrong. I only would pray when things were not going in the right direction. I only would turn to Him when I had tried everything else. I would only study my Bible for the lessons I would need to teach, but never just for my own understanding. I have just been a selfish Christian going to the Lord on my time and my needs. Oh, how I want to change all of that. I want to be the Christian that worships the Lord because He is worthy to be praised. I want to live my life for Him and with Him. I want to honestly begin a new walk with the Lord where my focus is on Him. I want to follow the Lord wholeheartedly and regardless whether things are going right or not. I want the Lord to say when I leave this world and go to my heavenly home "thou good and faithful servant I know you." Oh, how I do not want to hear Him say, "why did you hear MY voice?" "Why did you not believe in ME?" "Why did you take matters in your own hands when I had a plan for you that would have been better?" "Why did it take you so long to have faith in ME?"
But, today, Lord I am asking for your forgiveness in my neglect and my unbelief. I am asking for your forgiveness for not putting you first in my life. Dear Heavenly Father, take my hand and lead me in the direction in which you have planned. I need you to keep me from getting sidetracked and going in my own direction. Keep me on the straight and narrow path and keep my feet from going astray. Dear Lord, help my unbelief and give me the faith of a true and faithful Christ Like Christian. Let my life be a light that all may see you and want what I have and that is Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Thank you Lord for your love and forgiveness even though I am not worthy of it. Thank you Lord for your merciful love and for the grace I have taken advantage of so often. Oh, Lord, how I want others to feel your love and forgiveness as well. Help me to be the servant I should have been all of these years. Thank you Lord for the Bible that I may read your word and grow closer to You. Let me never neglect your Word again and may my prayer life grow to maturity where it should have been all along. May today be the day I start over and never fail you again.
Today is the first day of digging up the new treasures I will find through the Love of the Lord.
May you know the Lord in your life and in your heart. May you always focus on the Lord and follow the path He has set before you...
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