I could have slept in this morning, but oh no. That internal alarm clock woke me up at 4:44. My actual alarm clock goes off at 4:45 Mon through Fri to get ready for work. But it is Saturday. I wanted to sleep in. I laid there a couple of minutes and decided to check my emails and post to them. Then I remembered my blog and thought of all the things I have been wanting to post but just don't have the time. I have been neglecting my own blog. But circumstances keep me from being able to get online. So, why now and at this early time in the morning? I am at my safe house. I have had a month, about 30 days of my husband being sober. And I have truly felt happiness. I haven't felt that in such a long time. See, it wasn't just being sober that made me happy. It was that he has been coming to each church service with me. Yes, sober and in church. Sheer happiness for me. But yesterday he was not able to withstand the temptations and fell into drunkenness again. I will continue to pray that this is a short episode and that he will recover and continue to come to church. But for now I left and am safe.
I should go back and lie down and try to sleep, but my mind wanders so. All of the worries of life in general wandering through my mind. I will go and write in my journal for a while I think. Haven't had much time to write in it lately. But that is okay because I have been enjoying my time with my husband. Until yesterday that is. I had a month of conversations not arguments. A month of enjoying meals together not arguments. A month of watching tv together not arguments. You get my point. A month of sobriety. A month of no fear of abuse. A month.
I will praise the Lord for that month. 2010 had one month that I can say I was happy. And that my friend is unusual in my life. Yes, I am a happy person, but my marriage has not supplied me with too many happy moments. My journal yesterday morning stated how happy I was. Then I got off work and realized he was so bad that I did not even go home at all. So to say one month of happiness may seem trivial to some but to me it was a miracle.
I have a busy Saturday today. I am going to our district women's meeting. I am the program chairman. We are going to do a craft this time. We are making an ornament out of puzzle pieces. (Don't ever throw away puzzles that are missing a piece or two. They are wonderful items for making crafts.) I was going to do a devotional myself, but I found a devotional about being an ornament for the Lord from a wonderful person. Her site is www.juliabettencourt.com and she has devotionals galore and craft ideas and group devotional ideas. So, I am using hers because it is perfectly written for today's meeting. While they are doing their craft I will present the devotional. Julia writes like I want to. Oh, I am blessed with the ability to create lessons and devotionals for the Lord. I am just not able to get them written up to submit to anyone due to not the time or the opportunity. Husband detests the computer. I think of all the things I could if he would only accept the fact I have to do it on the computer. Like devoting time to this blog like I so want to. The things I could share with you. The lessons I could create so that children could learn about the Lord. And the devotional ideas I could share with my sisters in Christ. Oh, the wonders of the Lord could be recorded if only I could get online more often. Until then though I can only journal one entry at a time...
Do you have a wonder of Christ that you would like to share with us? I enjoy hearing from my friends the things the Lord has shown them or taught them or given them or blessed them or well, you understand. Anytime the Lord has done something for us we should be grateful and share it with one another. Hey, being able to post this morning is one thing I am grateful for. And the day hasn't even woke all the way up yet. I enjoy journaling so much. I posted a very long entry to one of the journaling groups I belong to before getting to my blog. You should visit the group. It is a good one and I have been a member for quite some time. Maybe you will join it and we can be online sisters through www.christianjournaling@yahoogroups.com .
Well, I am going to take a catnap before getting ready for the meeting. I will let you know how the craft session turned out. I wanted to do something different and well, since it is Christmas ornaments was a good thing to make. I love making things. Today I am grateful I have the time and opportunity to be with my sister church groups and do what I enjoy - sharing the Lord with others and making things. Fun day. Hope you have one too.
Love ya all, Marshel
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