I am not a quitter

But oh how I want to quit.  I want to quit taking my masters courses.  I talked with my academic advisor and she said I only have 5 more courses left.  I am over half done.  She said my next course is accounting.  So, I only have one more week plus today's quiz left of the algebra course.  It is making me want to quit, quit, quit.  But I am not quitting.  I may not pass the course and be put on academic probation and owe $2,000 for not passing the course, but I am not a quitter.  I may be stupid for even taking these master courses.  I should have taken masters in education.  I know that.  But I wanted to get my masters in business administration because of my age and I want to work in the business offices in education.  So, here I am failing this course, wanting to quit.  Why not?  I am no longer a teacher at this time at least.  I am losing my house to foreclosure which means I am going to have to put my dogs down because no one will take care of them like we have for the last 8 years.  A house is replaceable, but my dogs are living things and I cannot lose them.  So my prayer is I will find a house in the country that will let us keep our dogs.  So, I feel as if I have lost everything so why not quit this college course? 

Because this is what I want to do for myself.  No mortgage company can take this away from me.  No employer can fire me from obtaining my MBA.  Only thing that can keep me from getting to this major goal is myself.  I can quit.  But I am not a quitter.  I am going to do this.  For myself and no one else.  I will pass even if it is a C.  And I will take two weeks off per advisor's advice and take a couple of workshops to help me with the algebra, the excel, and the accounting I need refresher courses on.  Then I will get to work on the next course.  I have a 3.2 overall gpa.  Not bad for this 51 year old person right?

I don't want to quit.  If I don't go to school then I stop learning.  I am a teacher who loves to learn.  So, continuing education for me.  Just pray I pass this algebra class and then I am almost done.  Pray I will not let discouragement and depression get me down.  Pray I don't listen to the wiles of the devil and the negativity of my spouse and that no one convinces me to quit.  Pray that I can keep my dogs.  Pray that I will get a job soon.

Thank you Dear Lord for answering these prayers...